Silly sunday

its my cousin's birthday! ehehehe when ever heard birthday first thing comes to my mind is
ballons,cake, food,"pabitin" , clown , party games ehheheh i miss celebrating like this now
im becoming more mature *am i becoming one.?* ahahah now when i heard birthday i feell really blue i feel like i have an allergy on that special occasion
the first thing comes to my mind is YOU ,just to recall you said to me when i was turning 18 yrs.old
you want to be my last dance even i dont have one i want to have a debut. because
im excited to hold your hand, and hold me tight but that special day of mine comes
alone your presence are not there, you wont show up anymore my heart feels like melting like theres a huge
of fire continue burning my heart even my family, friends are their i'm only looking for you..
ahah still can't forget how you make me feel so blue feels like in hell that i wanna escape
but i cant i wanna cry tears in my eyes that i can bare beacause theirs an adult surrounded by me
and i only can do is to Smile To cover up the pain I have Inside my heart.aah . and miND sAYS MOVE ON KAMILLE
MOVE ON , please..!theres no worth in Crying so Stay strong SMILE. if only i have a
guts to say that "PLEASE ONLY ONE NIGHT MAKE ME FEEL SO HAPPPY ONLY FOR TODAY STAY FOR AWHILE AND DON'T GO!"
silly girl.. ahhahha..its not that i hate celebrating birthday its just that i had really really bad experince
after all a very tromatic experince happen to me!
but children parties is awsome but i had a very bad moments about his' cousins birthday anyway
after all i have lots of connection to him thats why i can't easily erase him in my life.

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