Hello SeptemBER

Dear Heart, Please stop getting involved with everything, your job is to pump blood....that's it I'm Trying to Understand everything if everything is being messed up again or what I don't know But why is everything is falling apart it feels like somebody's poking me inside ohohohoh no why do i feel this way need to run run run i'm not very vocal about this before but why now I'm just keep this way i can't find words to express every single thing i feel tons of crappy things building in my head..does I was the only one to fall? OK here How to solve this thing Step 1 : SMILE Step 2 : if everything is not alright REPEAT STEP 1 :))

today i don't feel like doing anything NOTHING AT ALL HAHAHAHA don't Fool around you foolish little girl being Lazy Is not you right doing your Very BEST at all , trying to all the things You Least Expected , Getting up when your down , Fight and preserve till the end where did it all go? just keep trying again you silly one where's The FIGHTING Thing that YOU ALWAYS SAID? STOP BEING SO LAZY YOUR NOT ATTRACTIVE ANYMORE.

❤❤❤
KAMILLE


END.

August is over

i don't know what i'm thinking and what i'm feeling it makes me going' crazy is this all thing are only in my mind? do you feeling the same too? or Can you just fall in love with me? ♡ honestly i really don't know what to do this feeling of Uneasiness that makes me feel so blue and makes my heart Burning LOVE is when you look into someone's EYES and you see their HEART.here we go again you silly girl You Keep on Falling.

Today i had a Waking Problems this morning i really don't want to go to school and my dad is in a hurry oh no i have to do something forcing my self to get up and immediately pour my self a cold water to be awake.but im to lazy to go to school please why so Mad dad ?BV go away No feasibility what? Great? oh no no no HAHAHA
the the rest forcing Myself to attend The class.WTH foolish girl Why so like that?
then Had a quiz got 9 out of 10 ten aww.. Miss 1 point cause don't wanna think and i'm just forcing My brain to come up an answer .. wannna go home no discussion please Its just that i can't accommodate some information now i can't! continue being like LAZY LAZY LAZY LAZY!

Love Love Love
Kamille


End.

A Beautiful Mess

ok. here we go again CONFUSING myself. with this strange feeling. that i could win :(
i cant really figure out this feeling that i had inside of me.I wish falling in love had traffic lights, so that I would know if I should go, slow down, or just stop to avoid heart accidents.

CRAZZY FEELING EVER THIS YEAR EVERY MINUTE
anyway LONGWEEKED IS OVER TOMORROW its A BRAND NEW DAY
WEEKDAYS IS COMING LOTS OF SCHOOL WORKS NEED TO BE ACCOMPLISH
JUST TAKE IT EASY! TAKE ONE STEP A TIME AND EVERYTHING WILL BE ALRIGHT AND
HAVE FAITH :)AND SMILE.
WATCH 2 EPIC MOVIE
EAT , PRAY , LOVE AND HARRY POTTER 7 PART 2


"Happiness is the consequence of personal effort. You fight for it, strive for it, insist upon it, and sometimes even travel around the world looking for it. You have to participate relentlessly in the manifestations of your own blessings."
— Elizabeth Gilbert (Eat, Pray, Love)


LOVE,LOVE LOVE
KAMILLE

END.

Skyscraper

You can take everything I have
You can break everything I am
Like I'm made of glass
Like I'm made of paper
Go on and try to tear me down
I will be rising from the ground


i watched 2 movie
today.

Eurotrip and Hangover
LONGWEEKEND SUCKS HAHAHAHAHAHAHA!
MAKES ME FEEL SO DAMN LAZY THIS COMING WEEKDAYS
WE HAVE LOTS OF PAPER WORKS TO DO CRAP!
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!
IRMSYFRL!

Why?

Do you expect me to believe I was the only one to fall?
I can feel, I can feel you near me, even though you're far away
I can feel, I can feel you baby, why

It's not supposed to feel this way
I need you, I need you
More and more each day

Hey, listen to what we're not saying
Let's play, a different game than what we're playing
Try, to look at me and really see my heart


3 movies in a row

In the name of love
She's out of my league
and fire Proof
Currently Downloading
The smurfs
Harry potter 7 part2
and crazy Stupid love.

Lazy WEEKEND :))
HAHAHAHAHAHAH!
But why i'm feeling this way HEART PLEASE EXPLAIN TO ME WHATS WITH YOU?
don't FALL to HARD! yaah! that guy sure is surrounded by girls.
Don't be hopeless, but don't be hopeful.


END.

err freaky .

Oh my its raining should go to school.? ahhahaa end up attending marketing class oh well i have no choice I need to attend this subject only this subject HAHAHAH super bias LOL anyway Planning to come to class late around 8:00 so take your time daddy im not in a hurry today cause actually don't feel to go to school today but oh well ahaha I arrive quarter to 8 Hmm before going to chapel first to pray after that i saw my professor in marketing HAHAHAHAHA! so Unlucky what to do.? hmm think kamille think ..and i walk very fast as much as i could and went to comfort room near Kitchen lab Gosh did he see Me ? gosh should I attend his class for real even my friends is not attending? luckily two of my friends are present.but honestly im too lazy to attend his class but what is this my brain cells is jumping around and i feel so alive ahaha We had a great discussion about advertising my professor never fail me to smile and amused me every meeting HEHEHE! afterwards i went to physical examination for clearance then skip class canteen skip class again ahahah! anyway this not so me I didn't ever try to skip major subjects its just that its not worth-trying anymore , no motivation to do this and do that whats wrong with me neither i , i don't know whats happening around me. could anybody explain why i easily give-up and im So scared to do things this past few weeks and my mind keeps telling me that stop stop stop when ever i want to do something HAHahAh so weird feeling , uneasiness , horrible insight ,and my mind is so messy and tangled right now cant think of anything why oh why? i don't know my goal now Or don't have motivation to do this kind of stuff.this worthless feeling and its killing me. i really lose my sense where did it go? it seems like feelings is not like an exam question that only have 1 answer,even i myself dosen't even know what is the correct answer.stop being naive you silly girl. stop fooling around come on every one is entitled to be stupid its just that you abuse that privilege.

Btw. I discover a secret place in our school I think that no one had been their except me. Its so Beautiful PLACE like a secret Garden HAHAHAHA.

END.

fool.

I really don't expect something to you im just so scared that everything will turn out so fast and we will mess-up like i had before in my past and everything would be so awkward for me such a selfishness i always thinking about myself because i know that your strong enough to handle everything AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! i really don't know! HAHAHAHAHAHAHA! my mind is really messy right Now can't think of WORDS.

Crzay stupid Love

Dear: YOU

you are so Unpredictable if only i can read your Mind.

you really don't know how i feel. You have NO idea how fast my heart races when I see you.

sleepless night

passing of final paper is done Looking forward for the defense I know i can do it :)) FIGHTING! everything gonna be alright ALL THE TIME GOD IS GOOD!

Mock defense -> Defense -> international tour -> finals -> OJT -> Graduation

way to go .. Before graduation AJA!We must never be afraid to go too far, for success lies just beyond.

leadership seminar

“A leader is one who knows the way, goes the way, and shows the way.” - John C Maxwell




with sir adrian (from Sbarro)and Sir herdie hernardez

Worst thing In the World.

HAHAHAHAHA.! hate this Lazy day again i don't have any idea what would happen in the future without you but i'm willing to risk it all. risk taker ako eh HAHAHA! don't worry i always have a plan. you will see.you gonna hate me for sure :)
MOVING ON . wanna Watch WAY back HOME :)


I HATE thesis .. ahha!

wrecked Wednesday

i feel so lazy SO damn LAZY why oh why! ahaha
early tomorrow! for the catering Midterm exam (LAB)


Dear God, Thank you for another beautiful day and bless me in so many ways (even when I don't deserve it). Amen.

Graduation pictorial

done GRADUATION PICTORIAL Next: passing of FINAL THESIS PAPER , THESIS DEFENSE , INTERNATIONAL TOUR, FINALS ,PRACTICUM, FINALLY GRADUATION lets take one step at a time i can do this. i can do this , everybody commit mistake just try your best
FIGHTING!

Mourning Monday.

Mock Interview is done Graduation picture for tomorrow then Us tour The Graduation YES!

HAHAHA!

anyway today feel so very tierd very very tired it seems like i lose a lot of energy
i sleep about 7 hours and feels like i don't want to do anything
ahah but i end up going to their house, even i don't want to but i have to go
cause i already decide to forget you abandon you just like you did to me
but the diffrence is i end it up with full of words. unsaid words before but
now its a words that makes me feel strong. strong enough to leave you
words full of hatred full of pain and tons of Crap!
and now as i go on with my life i realized that i don't need you to become a better person
now i fully understand why i always become strong ang always doing everything its all because of you
but for now on i will do it for myself i will become the best because of me
i will become better person because of me i will do everything because of ME ahahah!
HOLD ON KAMILLE.. Life never been so easy to live in i need to be EXTRA STRONG EXTRA CAREFUL
TRYING MY VERY BEST TO FORGET AND LEAVE YOU! TRYING IS HARD BUT IF I PUT MY HEART ON IT AND DO A LOT OF EFFORT I WILL BE SUCCECSFUL
BUT WHEN THAT TIME COMES I WILL GARANTEE YOU THAT I WILL NOT TURN MY AGAIN JUST TO SEE YOU SO THAT YOU CAN'T MESS UP WITH ME ANYMORE
AND SO THAT WE COULD LIVE A HAPPIER LIFE . LIFE IS NO TURNING BACK SO I WOULD NOT AHAHAH!
YOU SO LUCKY YOU HAVE LOVING PARENTS. i've seen it and i also experincing their UNconditional love even though that we're not togeher it seems Like
my parents and your parent have a strong Bond together that's scares me a lot but even though everytime that i'm their everytime that i pretend im okey
still time will come everything gonna be alright! somehow everthings gonna fall right into place. HAHAHA!
from now on i call my SELF SUPERKAMILLE ahaha BECAUSE IM SUPPER SUPER SUPER SUPER STRONG BRAVE AND SUPER SUPER PRETTY AHAHAHHA!

Dear August, please be better than July. :)